7:17 pm.

the thing is that no one wants to be mainstream. no one wants to be ordinary. everyone wants to be ‘that girl’ secretly. everyone wants to be thought of as special, to be special to someone. I’m not saying it’s wrong or anything. and if you argue against this, you probably are one of them…

apologies; 1:51AM.

I hear countless apologies everyday, each holding a meaning so vague, you can never understand their motive. “I’m sorry I was late.” “I’m sorry I hurt you.” “I’m sorry for your loss.” “I’m sorry for what I did.” “I’m sorry I didn’t call you” “I’m sorry for being so stupid.” “I’m sorry I never listen…

closure.

closure ;|ˈklōZHər| (noun)
– a feeling that an emotional experience has been resolved.

(this contains my bad humor and a rant on how to be happy)

library idea

library idea: i want a cozy library with lots of coffee. i want my books to be color coordinated and some to be author wise so everyone can find all the books together by their favorite author. i want the smell of coffee in the whole library. okay, not in the whole library because there…

yes, im back to my normal rants oops

okay, so before you start reading this, just know this is just another sad rant by a teenager who doesnt look like a teenager and doesnt act like a teenager (rather a toddler from what i’ve been told??) and is constantly stressed. i mean, this thing has been on my mind for quite a while…

a somewhat letter?

a letter for the one’s who are like me aka a letter for the future version of me, without bullet points. learn how to say no. try to not let the small things bother you, if you really are me then you’ll know the small things i’m talking about. remember that it’s okay to cry….

leave(s)?

we crush so many leaves everyday with our feet. it’s almost equal to the number of hearts broken everyday. since the past 2 years, i’ve been having many phases. i had a phase when i was obsessed with mermaids. a phase when i wanted a dog even tho I’m shit scared of them. a phase…

7:41 pm.

currently it’s 7:41 pm. why do people always use solid numbers like 3:00 or 4:30, why not 4:56 or 7:23? why do people always say be back in 10 minutes or 5 minutes, why not, 6 minutes or 13 minutes? why do we always end up rounding them off? why do we always approx them to an extent…

the left & the leftee

left, here: the ones who have left. leftee, here: the who who have been left. (poetic licence? no?) this is for the ones who have been left: no, there’s nothing wrong with you. and no you do not deserve it. and no, its not your fault. there will be people out there who will accept…

a list of things to do on a bad day

a list of things to do on a bad day a. make lists, imaginary lists or angry lists. a list of things you want to do, a list of things that make you sad, or a list like this will work too. it’s a good stress reliever, trust me. i do it all the time. b….

bookish days.

I think i finally understand why reading and writing feels peaceful. With books, every character can be categorised: s/he is good, or bad or just a supporting character whose story will be written later. There are also some good characters that turn bad and vice versa. It’s all in our control but we can’t  change…

outsider // 8:26 pm.

(this is going to be a quick post, mostly bc i dont have time rn but I wanted to write about this line so heh) “an outsider in the inside.” for some reason, I’ve been thinking about this line a lot. it’s a sad tragedy; that line and how no one seems to get it….