the morning after.

the morning after we first met, i woke up frowning. one would think after meeting the soon to be, ‘the love of your life,’ you’d wake up with a smile. but no, i woke up with a frown because for the first time in weeks, i didn’t wake up in the middle of the night. the…

be the mother you said you’ll be.

don’t be the mother who doesn’t realise what long sleeves in summer and loud music in showers mean. don’t be the mother who doesn’t know what excuses for lunch mean, don’t be the mother who doesn’t know what a constant hand on the stomach means. don’t be the mother who doesn’t understand why sleeping-in sounds…

what we were.

we had subway thrice a week and our room smelled like the ocean. surprise parties excited us and the bursting of balloons scared us. we loved like our physics professor loved light laws and taylor swift puns. we found lost leaves in old journals and phone covers. there were saturns painted on our cupboards and…

closure.

closure ;|ˈklōZHər| (noun)
– a feeling that an emotional experience has been resolved.

(this contains my bad humor and a rant on how to be happy)

things i’ve learnt by hurting (others and myself)

things i’ve learnt by hurting (others and myself) a. never let someone get inside your head. b. do not ever tell someone what’s really inside you because somehow you end up hurting them and then they end up hurting you back and then in the end, you blame yourself for ruining everything and that is…

december book list !!

okay – so before you start thinking this a list of december vibe reads, nope, it’s not. this is not a christams-y book list either and the only reason this has december is because, well it’s december right now and i’m posting in december and i thought, why not? (i know, i know, i’m lame, sorry, nope cant do…

how to feign indifference

1. start smiling a lot, never let it slip your lips because someone might catch you at your worst and we all know what happened the last that happened. one crack and you’re gone. but smiles know how to cover cracks and faults, so no matter what happens, you cannot lose the one thing that…

how to find comfort

1. wear oversized clothes. shirts that are too big and come till your knees, boxers that are too loose and have to be tied repeatedly. 2. get over yourself, no one has time for your shit again and again. instead of looking for comfort in them, find comfort in solitude. 3. dont be afraid to…

letters i’ll try to send

crumbled letters. # i’m writing to you again. i dont know what to say. i dont know where to send. i think, i dont know. ## it’s been a while. err, hi. ### this is too much wow, i cant even write to you now. if you were here, you would have helped. perhaps it…