how to feign indifference

1. start smiling a lot, never let it slip your lips because someone might catch you at your worst and we all know what happened the last that happened. one crack and you’re gone. but smiles know how to cover cracks and faults, so no matter what happens, you cannot lose the one thing that…

how to find comfort

1. wear oversized clothes. shirts that are too big and come till your knees, boxers that are too loose and have to be tied repeatedly. 2. get over yourself, no one has time for your shit again and again. instead of looking for comfort in them, find comfort in solitude. 3. dont be afraid to…

excerpt from a story I might write, #1

on the way to infinite, you taught me how to love myself. you made me believe my body an artist’s empty canvas and you had all your colors and brushes set. I learnt to love myself like I had vines growing from my hair and dandelions flowing in my veins. But then dandelions are weeds…

the left & the leftee

left, here: the ones who have left. leftee, here: the who who have been left. (poetic licence? no?) this is for the ones who have been left: no, there’s nothing wrong with you. and no you do not deserve it. and no, its not your fault. there will be people out there who will accept…

guidelines for a good day

1. wave at the girl that talks to herself, watch her look behind herself to see if its her you are talking to, watch her blush and wave back. 2. Keep the door open for people but not for long so they think they can just take you for granted. They are too busy and…

things no one will tell you

  its okay to worry about small things like non emoji comments and sentences with (or without) full stops.  its okay to not want to let go, but its important to know how to. its okay to just want to stay in bed when you have an exam the next day, as long as you…

to love a soul, #2

for a writer, you’ll be the one she’ll write the most about. you might not always have the role of her knight in shinning amor and you might as well end up up being described as a nightmare, bear with her. she still loves you. she will write about the future, with and without you….

almost 110 happy days without you.

day 1: i went to bed with an empty stomach and pretended not to love you day 3: i cut all the dried flowers i had from the time we went to the public park. day 7: i read our old messages and tried to kill the monsters under my bed. day 11: i counted…

For the daughter that might come,

dear daughter, when you start to feel yourself falling in love, go to the nearest store and buy yourself a sweater. Make sure it’ll last. Warm yourself, turn yourself into a cocoon, go through reversed metamorphosis. Don’t try to run from it, it’ll happen. Gradually, it’ll come. And maybe, it’ll stay. Prepare yourself. Go through…